at first i felt guilty and angry at the amount of money that went to You and tried to block You but i couldn’t
gradually i have come to realise that it is an honour to be fucked over by you and that defines my existence now
you are so very superior to me and i am so pathetic now knowing the highlight of my existence is to be fucked over by you and that there is nothing i can do to stop it; even more scary is the realisation that i don’t want to stop it any more; i can’t help myself; i can’t stop viewing your pictures and worshipping you daily
i don’t know how you managed it but i can’t stop doing it.
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The highlight of your existence is to be fucked over by me. Accept it. Understand it.
And surrender even deeper.
